Who am I?

My wondering about who I am is a sickness? In the past, I wondered how to make money and stay satisfied with my job. This thought prompted my question as to what my mission in life is. I have so many interests but I can never stay focussed on one. Actually there is nothing to worry about. I have many interests and my "I" is not an experience. It can decide which experience to have, but it is not an experience in itself.

To prove this ask yourself "Who is the experiencer? Who sees? Who thinks? Where do you experience this activity or witness from? What is it? Does it feel Empty or Infinite?

If the last answer is "yes", then this proves the I is actually Spirit. It is not a body.

This means I can do whatever I like and I don't have to identify with any subpersonality, mask or hat. I don't have to be a "people pleaser" all the time or a Mother , Father, Worker, Striver or Needy Child or even a Victim. I can actually choose.

Or can I? If I am identified with a particular subpersonality then I see myself as that. Therefore if I try to change to another subpersonality I will fear annihilation. Especially if this subpersonality was formed in order to protect myself and be loved as a child. This can be called a survival personality.